Table of Contents
2. Encrypted Monday’s
3. The portion of the Lord
4. Strengthened prayer
5. Engaging with the Holy Spirit
As you’ve noticed by now, this blog is all about my journey with God:the change, growth, and relationship through prayer journaling. So many times this year, I heard the counsel of discouragement and abandoning trying to talk me out of it. And the reasons they propose in my earway was:
- You’re too busy
- You don’t have time for this
- Your schedule is too tight
- It takes too much time
- It’s useless and time-consuming
In this post, I will be explaining my journey through the wilderness of disorientation with prayer journaling and how it helped me through it. In every situation, God will make a way – even though It may seem there is no way out! There is a strategy for every situation.
During the time I’ve experienced disorientation, it was the busiest time at school and also right after the passing of my grandma and mother-in-law. I began to feel the fatigue of spiritual warfare and then I still had to continue my duties at work and home. At my lowest point, the voice of the enemy started to talk me out of journaling, but I held on to my Monday journaling!
I still woke up at my alarms chiming at 4:15 am and sometimes even before it could go off. Although I experienced exhaustion, I still proclaim that I will walk and not faint, run and not grow weary, and eventually mount up with wings like an eagle.
1.2 A weekly dedication
This journal entry has secured its place in my journal and spirit. It is where I give instead of just receiving and also a weapon where I say: Hands off!
Monday’s are the gateway into my busy week and even though I did not journal every day, I possessed the gate to my week by writing a dedication. In this specific dedication, I dedicate the areas of my life and concentrated the corners of each territory.
1.2.1 A prayer of dedication
The Holy Spirit took my boring prayer life and filled it with lots of strategies and creativity. One of these strategies is resistance training.
“Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.”James 4:7
Resistance training consists of scriptural declarations and prayers followed by power morning punches of worship.
Every morning I claimed my daily portion, especially when I felt discouraged and weak. Early morning orientation through prayer, studying, and meditating on the word of God helped to regain our focus.
When Elijah the prophet drifts off in the wilderness, after killing the prophets of Baal, he might have experience disorientation.
There he sat down under a broom tree, where he prayed that he would die. He said, “I’ve had enough, Lord1 Kings 19:4
Suddenly an angel touched him and said, “Get up and eat.”1 Kings 19:5
An angel appeared to him twice and consist that he eat and move on.
Then the angel of the Lord came back a second time and touched him and said, “Get up and eat, because the journey is too much for you.”1 Kings 19:7
When we engage in prayer journaling, it’s not just about writing down your prayers or doing scripture studies; but it also requires us to be mindful. I’ve found that the Holy Spirit uses words, scriptures, and pictures during journaling to get our attention. Sometimes I miss the clues, but when the same clue pops up again later, I know somethings up!
With the above picture of hope in my journal, when I coincidentally(rather led by Holy Spirit, I’d say) viewed previous pages, guess what I found? I realized that this is the second placing of hope, right at the beginning of each month.
I’ve already added a theme to my journal and activated it and this month Holy Spirit made me aware of the biblical value of hope. Disorientation makes a person drifts further away from God and this means drifting away from hope.
I should probably have started with this because it is the first action I launch. When I started discerning that something is wrong, I immediately engaged with the Holy Spirit and started to ask questions about the situation and why I’m feeling the way I do.
After popping some questions, one has to remain in the waiting room. Patience is the key here!
Disorientation could be caused by various factors and should be discerned to know the direction of the Holy Spirit. I would also like to mention, that there might be another reason why a person experiences disorientation for example when going through a season of maturity and growth causing discomfort for a while.